Run fever.

I dont have run fever. I make plan to run tonight, bud sadly i have fever. Im feeling sluggish now. Haish. I need this run. Saturday n sunday i have important events!

I went back from work today and caught in the rain. As soon as i arrived home, i get changed. Next thing i know, im sleeping! I rarely sleep in the evening. I woke up feeling awful.

Now i want to take a bath. Hope i'll feel much better after this.

Im in love with internet and iphone

Im so deeply madly in love with these two. It makes my complicated and hectic life a whole lot easier. I cant imagine living without the two. I really appreciates the invention of internet. Whoever created it was a genius.

I am a total loser when it comes to memorizing how to get from point A to point B. and thank you to Google maps, i reached places that i never did before. It saves me a lot of times. And fuel. Not only it shows me the way to
go somewhere, it even give me options! Very nice. The combo of iphone and internet makes my life almost perfect. Almost.

And i cam check almost about anything. When i have my iphone
Of course there are the cons, but im gonna discuss about it as im too engrossed in the positive side. I am in love with them. Remember? I'll see only the good things. Love makes you blind. Haha not all the time.

Today is another holiday.

Its christmas so its a public holiday. I am at home, a little stress. Im doing a major decluttering, yet again. I have lotsa stuff ans i feel like its drowning me and weighing me down.

I wanna be free, light, and liberated. I wanna be with only essential things, that i need an use, pretty things and things that i love. Its quite hard initially as i love to collects stuff as i travel and also all the things i got from running events. Thats kinda hard to part with since it took me almost 2 years of training to start winning the open running events.

So what im doing today is to group everything together according to its type, so that i know how many similar things that i owned. Then im gonna purge purge purge.

Is english important for Malaysians?

Yes. Extremely important if you ask me. My opinion might differs greatly with the team that protects the Malay Language. Malay language is important too, dont get me wrong. But personally i think everyone should be fluent in both language. Malay is out first language that we ever learn as Malay in Malaysia, as we pick it up from our parents, siblings or surroundings. But we also need english in our life.

I am glad that i understands english and can converse in the language. Why?

1) i travel overseas, and english helped me a whole lot. Imaging going to Thailand and you cant speak their language and they cant speak yours. Awkward much? So the solution is english. Simple. It saves me a lot of headache and figuring out while in Thailand.

2) I can watch everything on tv or movie without subtitles. And i can enjoy it even more as i will not divide my attention from the movie by reading the subtitle. I can actually enjoy the movie with full attention and understanding. We can understand the jokes and all, and tanslation sometimes kill the jokes!

3) I love to read. And there are millions of super great English books that are out there. Imagine if you can only read Malay and must wait for the translated version? How many books have you passed just because you dont understands English that well. What a waste of knowledge or information.

So how about we all make active change and improve our english. You wont regret it. Seriously. And if you wanna create a blog or youtube videos, speaking in English will definitely give you a much wider target audience. Think all over the world!

Bye.

25 years and 1 month

Thats my exact age. And last this there's a life turning experience. Its very intense and extreme, really caught me off guard. I dont really know how to deal with it, since i never had a similar fight. I think its a fight. Verbal fight i course. Obviously its not street fight or whatever. Haha.

However, it really gives me a new and fresh perspective in life. Now i know that:
1) dont waste time, dont drag time, dont give a damn about unimportant thing. Appreciate and enjoy every second of your life. Choose what you want to do, and DO it right. Promptly. Never delay important thing. PRIORITIZE is the key.

2) Make plans and create the milestones. Achieve one by one. And realize that certain things happen without any plans at all. It just happens. So embrace any spontaneity too. Dont overplan. If something dont go according to your plan or becomes out of your control, make new decision FAST.

3) Live in the present. Dont EVER fret or things about past. Its history and there is NO point talking about it. Just live TODAY in the best way possible. Do stuff. Dont hesitate. You'll regret not doing. But dont do irreversible stuff of course, you decide what is it. Just live in the moment and do things that will make your future better. Today is the milestones for tomorrow and the day after.

4) Appreciate people. Once you loose them, its not easy to get them back. When you find someone who likes you, and you like them back, kindly evolve to the next level. Its the right thing to do. Solat istikharah. Dont stay in something that you know will have bad outcome. Change your relationship status if it doesnt make you happy or it felt wrong. Sometimes BFF is a better relation and sometimes H&W is a better relation. Just dont waste too much time figuring it out. Life is short.

Help my clothes please!

I love my clothes way too much even though i dont wear all of them. Okay now it sounds silly. Now, i am in a crazy attempt to let go of half of my clothes. Crazy enough?

Im becoming a minimalist and i want to do this. When i took out all my clothes yesterday, i was quite shocked that some of them still have the tags and unworn! I felt really guilty thinking about other people who doesnt even have a spare cloth.

So, i am donating my clothes ang passing it to anyone who might need it more than me. Free clothes? Anyone?

Would you watch a movie alone?

If you ask me. Definitely. There's just where i just wanna go by myself and totally indulge mysel into the story. Usually after i finished a very hard exam, or things alike, i would wanna destress alone. I wanna skip the whole how's your test bla bla bla. Thinking about a test is scary, no matter how prepared i am. Even more so if im not really prepared.

So i think watching alone would possibly be the best thing to do. Get some me time after a stressful big test. There is absolutely no need to think about what others think of you. Yiu choose what you want to do. And just do it. Own up to your life and dont limit yourself just because you are afraid if what others might think. Chances are, they dont even think about what you do, because they are obsessiong about what YOU might think about them. Vicious cycle. Just get out of it and enjoy the movie alone.

What say you

I have 4 black abayas (jubah) and i want some more. I would like a plain black one, can i? I think all black is really nice and it is aligned with the guidelines.

I still wear my usual clothes, but i wear abaya half of the time. Will there be the time where i wear abaya all the time, when im outside? Maybe. Except for when im running, obviously.

I think abaya is the perfect work clothes for women, and it can be casual too. Im gonna list down the pros of wearing abaya daily.

1) u can save a lot of time when getting ready for work/class. Its all black. Just pick one and bam! You're ready to roll.

2) u save money on clothes. Seriously how many black abayas do u need? And since its almost the same, no worries about getting out-of-date!

3) u save space in the closet. Theres no need for separate compartments for various types of clothes. No dif pants hangers, skirts hangers, bikinis bla3.. U only need space for abayas, workout clothes, sleeping clothes.. U get the point.

4) u dont attract unwanted attention. Who wants random guys stares at you and your thang?? Not me. Abayas makes u feel safe and they cant see your body. Padan muka lelaki gatal.

So try it. Wear abaya once and see how it makes you feel. Its a really good feeling. Trust me.

Im still not the best

Guess what? I get no 2s in more events. No 2 in Klang Run 4 It 6km. No 2 in 3000m Temasya Olahraga Tahunan UiTM 2012. No 2 in Larian Saf UiTM.

Am i destined to be no 2. I sure hope not.

Just an entry

I am in my slow journey towards minimalism. So today i decided to get rid of my excess clothes. Get rid doesnt mean throw away.. It means i throw it away, donate it, or give it to someone who will actually wear it and can fit them.

No, im not getting fat. Its just that some clothes that i used to wear does not make me comfortable anymore. I changed. For the better. And i know some of my clothes are not appropriate for me anymore. I am 25 and i am approaching death, whether im ready or not. So i better dress as if im gonna die any moment.

Okay. If i can give marks to the completeness of my dressing, in terms of aurat, maybe its 85, i guess. But who am I to judge myself. My point is its not really 100% and i would really like it to be that way.

Feet is aurat but sometimes i dont wear socks. What am i? Ignorant? I dont know. Do pray for me to keep me strong and be a good Muslimah.

One of the step to make my transformation complete is to let go of the clothes that are not appropriate. Hopefully it works.

Its my time

I am watching If Only.. I cried. She died. I will too. I dont know when. I think its my time. To repent.

Im 25, so what?

i am 25 now. And im feeling damn good about it. I have lived for 25 years. OMG. And what have i achieved? Not much i think. But there are things that I'm proud of. Si i guess I'll post about my highlights of 2012 since its almost december.

Penang Bridge International Marathon 2012 - Race report

Ok, so i had run the PBIM. My first ever run in Penang. You know how hard I trained and how i sacrifice a lot of things for the sake of this game. But, i know that we can only plan.

My target for the 10km run is to break the 50minutes time and to get top 10 rank in women's open.
Actual Result : 56:31 and Rank: 20

I am satisfied with the result, but i didnt reach my target. so what can i do? train harder and go back next year! i want to achieve both target by then.

i came to Penang pumped with excitement and all. Unfortunately the night before the event, I got bombed with an information that is really shocking and life-turning. i dont know what's worse, knowing it at a very bad timing or spending tons of money on the trip and get nothing.

God had plan everything for me. And i accept it. But of course i cried my eyeballs out that night. Sometimes i wonder how one simple information can affects one's person so much, i dont have the answer. But i get the first-hand experience and i dont like it one bit. Imagine having the best day of your life, everything was perfect, and suddendly BOOM, that effing news ruined everything. And i mean EVERYTHING. It makes me stress, angry, sad, loose focus. all at once.

I cried so much that my eyes are swollen the next morning, The morning of PBIM! How dare you. You and your little thing with UNCLE annoys the crap out of me. I blame you and uncle. I am so mad that I'm not in the perfect state of mind on the race day. And i dont get quality sleep. Yeah thanks a lot. All my 3 weeks of intense training just flew out of the window. i kept thinking about it the WHOLE run.

Uncle, you are so gonna pay for this.

Oh spicy food

In my 21 days road to PBIM, i seriously watch what i eat. I dont drink iced beverages, no soft drinks, NO SPICY FOOD, no red meat, no minyak2 sangat, no McD no KFC no fast food. I just strive on nescafe. Yeah i know its not good to consume to much caffeine, but i drink lots n lots n lots of plain water to cover it up. I promise. Hehe.

I always do these sacrifices when i have really important run coming up. But to avoid spicy food is so damn hard, man. But a runner gotta do what a runner gotta do. I run about 4-5 times per week, with long runs included (i dont do long runs before this). Hopefully it show in PBIM. I really2 wanna break the 50minutes mark for 10km. Fingers crossed.

Good to great

I self talk a lot. Maybe i dont have the best support system ever, but i positive-talk myself. You should do it do. Instead of depending on others to make you feel good, just be in charge and make yourself feel great.

Im on a 3-weeks diet

I started my diet on monday 29 October 2012 and it will ends in 21 days. The end point will be on 18th November, which is PBIM 2012. I will watch what i eat for this 21 days and train at least 4 times per week.

Im want to loose 2.5-3.5kg and reach 51kg by that date. I sacrifice lotsa things and i am okay with it.

My goal for PBIM is to break 50minutes mark for 10km.

Are you really THAT busy

I think everyone is absolutely seriously busy. Or they are just ignoring me. Or not care enough about me. I dont know.

And i dont know what to think. Maybe i should just move on with my life. Its not like im dead if they are busy. Oh. Maybe i should focus more on life after death, instead of thinking about this life .

Im just a little stress out. Maybe its the hormones. Again. I dont know. Im not sure. Could use a little support.

Some bus driver should be more considerate

Oh long title. Im on a bus and it gets me thinking about the driver's manners. Some are really polite and cares about passengers while some are just the total opposite. They are plain rude and inconsiderate. I once witness the bus just left a lady when she went to the toilet. Later, somebody realizes that she's missing and then they look for her. That' just unacceptable. And some would stop at the side of the road to chat with their friends. Hello? Do you forget about all 40 of us behind you? If it's for a while it's fine, but imagine if it goes on for few minutes AND a few times.
But maybe its only a tiny percentage of the drivers that are like that.
Most of them are okay and nice. And i praise them for that. I respect them for taking us everywhere and stayong awake while we snooze away. Thank you for all you have done, bus drivers.

I hate rushing

If i have to rush, i'll be nervous.
If i'm nervous i'll be sweaty.
I hate that a lot. I'll try to control my situation so that i dont hv to rush.
But sometimes things are out of my control. For instance, my class ends at 4 and i have to rush to take the 5.45 bus to go back to my hometown.
That's something that i cant control. Even if i bring my bags to class an i go straight to bus stop, i cant control the traffic. Things like this makes me nervous. Because its out of my control.
I try my hardest to just be calm. But when i know the bus is not gonna wait for me, its hard not to feel anxious. I must learn to just relax.
All i can do is pack everything the day before and cut my time as much as possible. Then just tawakal. If i make it, it's meant to be. And if i miss the bus, it's also meant to be, considering that i already did all i an to be on time.

When it rains, i cry

I dont cry everytime it rains nor try to be metaphoric. Today it rains, and i cried. Yup, in the rain. Sangat sedih. You may ask why. Or you dont. It's ok, im going to spill anyway.

So, here it goes. My bus is at 545pm from section 17. I left office at 4 plus, get home and at 5.00 i am out. Usually i'll walk to the nearest bus stand which is 200m away. But it rains heavily. I brought my rain-jacket so i put it on. I wanted to just walk through the rain, but i dont want to ruin the bag that i bought for my mum. So i put all the bag n my bag under my block so they are safe from the rain. I stayed in the rain to hail a cab. I cant go to the bus stand because the bags will be soaking wet.

There are like 5 cabs that disnt stop. I didnt know why. So i started crying since i dont wanna miss my bus. Aiyoo mmg sedih. Nak give up and go upstairs. I called my brother and he said usually busses will be late when its raining. So i go back and waited in the rain, finally a cab came and get me to the station. It was 5.53 and i heard the final call for my bus.

So i did what i did best. I run. To the bus. Im the last one. So here i am in the bus, with wet kain. Baju tak badah cause i wore the rain jacket.

Lesson learnt
1) when i travel, i should bring
-FOLDABLE UMBRELLA
-rain-jacket
-plastic bag to wrap all the bags
-shoes that can get wet (luckily today i wore crocs.

All these things doea not take up lots of space. They are totally worth bringing.

I kinda miss you

I kinda miss you. It's not a terrible feeling but it's not a pleasant feeling too. I feel like i wanna see you in front of me, i wanna talk to you all the time.. I dont know. It felt different and lost. Kinda alone. I know you are there. But i want you to be here. Do come back.

My sport is your sport's punishment

I am a runner. And what i do is run. I love running like nobody else does. Some people dread running and will create millions of excuses just to escape a running session. Well i wont. I will find an excuse just to run. I love it so damn much that i love to do running shoe-shopping rather than oter shoe-shopping.

When i am stressed, running will maje it dissappear. I love running alone, with a partner, or in groups. I live running on tracks, road or treadmill. I dont care what time, or where. In fact, i would be glad if my job requires me to run.

Now im preparing myself for Nike Run KL 2012. Im not fit enough but i hope i'll manage to squeeze the top 5 spot. I joined the Nike Run KL 2010 n 2011, and i got no 6 and no 8 respectively in women under 25 category.

Hopefully this year i'll get better result. Tomorrow is the day. I will go to work in the morning, and go to the run in the evening. Wish me luck.

Im not free

I hate to say im not free for another million time. I work 830-6 most of the day. And sometimes longer. Sometimes on saturday. I am also still a student, taking one hard subject. I run 3-5 sessions per week with an event every fortnight. So when is my free time. Thus, im not free. I hate to say im not free. I wanna have fun to.

This hectic schedule just started this week, and if it prolongs, i dont know what will happen. I do my best every single day, and at 1030pm im too exhausted to function. I need to find a way out, or a way to relax and rewars myself. I am taking one day at a time and i try positive-talk to get me goinh.

It's hard handling this alone. But, i think it'll be harder if i'm not alone, as i have to take into consideration about someone else. Why would i drag someone else into this crazy life of mine. I just pray that i will find a way to make all these a little easier and manageable.

My utmost gratitude (delayed post)

Here i am today, as a Muslim lady from a Muslim family working in an Islamic environment. I have a lot of people to thank for making me who I am. The upbringing that made me ME. I am happy the way i turned out. Yes, of course i have certain things that i regret i did, and sometimes still wishing i haven't done. But that is all my history and are apart of me.

Now, i feel that i am more matured, making better decisions in life. So, here goes the list.
I want to thank Allah because i was born a Muslim and also because of every little blessings from Him.
I want to thank my parents for taking care of me all these 25 years, guiding me along the way.
I want to thank Wan & Cumin for taking care of me when i was little.
I want to thank all my siblings for the times we have, growing up together.
I want to thank all my friends, all that shape me or break me. Those whi made the challenging teenage life bearable.. In uni, mia mel rara kish sam ijam anisjihan sya.. In matric naben ismaon syasya zaimas za sya nas.. My teammates in futsal, handball, running and all.. Team under coach Tom, coach Zahid n coach Shariff.. Especially Suky, my BFF.
I want to thank all my teachers, lecturers, coaches, supervisors, managers, bosses for everything that u've done, for all the new things i've learnt, the new experience and knowledge.
I want to thank everyone i know for making my life a pleasant one.
I want to thank all the strangers that made my day.
I want to thank my cats that cheers me up.
I am grateful for every little things that happens in my life, no matter how petty it seems. I am thankful that i am me. I feel gracious for all opportunities that i took, for every achievements i get, for every mistakes i did.
It's all apart of my life. As for now, i am moving forward, striving for a better today. I thank u all for everything. Let us not dwell on the past and make the best of every single day. Every. Single. Day. And also dont be obsess by the future, as it may not come. So my point is, live as if today is your last day.

From travel to travel (delayed post)

Im really in love with travelling. I feel at ease when im on a journey to another country. Sometimes i think of my life, is like a waitig for another travel. When im back from one country, i will start thingking about next destination. And counting the days until the times come.

Right now, im waiting to board the plane back to Malaysia. I've been in Krabi for 5 days. Tomorrow im going to work as usual. I will start my countdown to Hong Kong in January 2013. It is 105 days to go. Cant wait. Maybe I can go to Guangzhou while im there.

How i wish travelling is my job.

October tragedy / tragedi oktober

Does it really exist? I dont think so. But a sequence of bad things did happen yesterday. First, my colleague pass out, then another colleague's car broke down, later my boss' car was out of gas. If those are not coincidence, i dont know what else can they be? What? TRAGEDI OKTOBER?? No way!! There's no such things. Bad things happen all the time. Not only in this month. So everybody will stay at home and avoid everything dangerous laa? I cant go to work, i might crah my car? No i cant bike either, i'll run into a pole. I cant eat, there might be poison in it! I cant sleep, i might not wake up!

Seriously?

Okay so for me all the undesired incidents are bound to happen sooner or later. It's a test from God to see how you'll take it. But trust me, everything has its silver lining. Look from the bright side. It will always get better.

Next country please

Okay, lets recap, which countries have i been to, and which countries is in plan.

1987-1989 Born and lives in Australia
1989-now Change nationality and lives in Malaysia

Travels

• November 2011 - Jakarta & Bandung, Indonesia
• March 2012 - Singapore

Next in line

• September 2012 - Thailand
• January 2013 - Hong Kong

Thank you Allah for all these opportunities. I want to lead an islamic minimalist lifestyle, have financial freedom and travels all over the world. And thanks to my parents for understanding and the money :), thanks to my travel partners and thanks to my non-shopaholicness. Is that a word? If not, it should be included in the dictionary.

This is my card

When i was a little girl, TV shows made me think that all working people have name card. because here and there, in the drama, career people wearing flashy suits and handing out cards to others while saying "This is my card".

So i thought that name card is a sign of success. A prove that you are doing well, have prominent career and bright future. However, i don't think it is really like that. i was about 8, what do i know.

Now at 24, i am taking my first step on the career ladder. With degree in hand, i got a job as Finance Executive at a firm. Well, i am not a degree holder yet, as i am still waiting for my final result, but i got the job nonetheless. Alhamdulillah.

Now do i get to hand out my own name cards to others, for the sake of networking? NOPE. haha. I don't feel the need at the moment, maybe later. But, one thing for sure, career world rocks. i never knew how much i love working and dislike studying, until i now. it is not that i dont like studying or being a student, because i love studying. it is just that when i'm working, i go home in the evening, and i'm free. i don't have to think about anything job-related. i left everything at my office door and enjoy my outside life.

It's the absolute contrary with student life. i finish my lectures at 4 or 6 pm, but can i leave everything out of mind, and continue thinking tomorrow? heck no! i have to bring everything back, all the mutiple assignments, homeworks, projects. hard work, tough time. But, the outcome is priceless. we get degree and countless experience that we may not get elsewhere. i am thankful that i finished the 5 semesters of degree. Now i'm only waiting for the final results. i think it will be out before Sept 16. Then, i can myself a degree holder. Ya Allah, please help me to pass the paper.

However, everything have their pros & cons. Working also has the downside, for example, the occasional working Saturday. (Which, by the way, gets me one day off, thanks Boss). And i have to deal from all kind of people from all walks of lives. Most are easily handled, and some are, you guessed it, a tiny bit difficult.

Anyways, the big pros now is the holiday part. i love travelling. And it's kinda easy to apply for my leaves. Alhamdulillah. So i can lead the life that i want easily. That means working and  overseas travelling 3-4 times per year.

Just a little bit

I want to live in moderation, in complete simplicity and serenity. Just a little bit. Just enough. I don't want extravaganza.

I had started working 9-5 now. My salary is not as much as i expected,but i think Allah knows whats best for me, and what is enough for me.

My life is quite simple. I work during office hour. I run in the evening/night. Take part in marathons. Do some freelance work. Meet friends & family. Save money for future. Go on overseas trips. Window shops.

I am content with my life now. Since i started on the minimalism journey, i don't shop that much. I prefer to window shop and save money. I spend on things that i really need or i really want. I don't really regret not buying. It can be quite liberating actually. Having to go shopping in a place full of temptation and come back with nothing (especially for shopaholics).

I am in my shopping-fast, where i dont buy anything except things i need such as groceries. I don't buy new clothes, shoes, bag or anything.

But i will buy them if i think it will add value to me. And makes my life easier & simpler.

KISS

I dont know who invented this acronym that stands for Keep It Simple Stupid. I think it is a bit harsh and i prefer my boss' version: Keep It Simple & Secure. My version would be Keep it Simple Sayang. Haha okay poyo.

Anyway, the point is the importance of simplicity. I think it applies to every single thing in life. Simplicity is the key. Who likes complicated things? Anyone?

Minimalism and simplicity. It makes my life easy, happy and fuss-free. Don't over analyse, don't over think, don't over plan. Just keep everything in moderation. The end result will be great, minus the stress.

I used to over plan, now i live day by day. I do make plans, but if there are changes, i don't sweat it. I just embrace the spontaneity it brings. Routine can be boring right.

The opposite feelings

I am at a point in life where i sometimes have mixed feelings. Two extremely strong but totally opposite feelings. Such as extreme happiness and sadness simultaneously. It takes the enjoyment out of what i'm supposed to celebrate.

I may be happy that i land a job that i really want, and i will be all cheery and excited and tell others that are close to me. But sometimes it just seems that they don't feel happy for you. And this made me quite upset.

I know i can't rely on others to feel happy for me. Yet it still occurs to me why can't they be happy for me, for the path that i have chosen. I want to share the great news. Initially, i felt very happy, and warm and all fuzzy inside and can't wait to share. When you get a very flat 'ok' it sure does hurts. All my heavenly feelings gone. Just like that.

I know maybe my news is not as exciting as yours. But it's quite big for me.

Okay, enough ramblings. I got a job that i want and i am content with my life.

You are always right. Congratulations.

It's funny how people react to any situations. U must know a person who can turn any situation into your fault even though it's not. It's almost like, whatever u do, or whatever they do, it will always be your fault. ALWAYS.

But if later they do the same things that u did, they are not wrong. If u did it, it's wrong. ???

Even if it's their fault, they can konar ayat and you will be at fault. Penat betul. So i have one thing to say. If you are always right and i am always wrong, why are u even talking to me. Maybe its better to talk to yourself since you are perfect, and i'm not. Have fun amusing yourself in your perfect and right world.

Plan B

I'm a big planner. I plan everything until the very last detail. I don't like being unprepared, to the extend of being over-prepared. Sometimes this can be a little tiring.

I took a lot of time to google about things, understanding everything in and out before making any decision. It is seriously exhausting. But i hate making uninformed decision. Sigh.

I have my life mapped out until 2013. But one not-so-small incident messed up MOST of my plan. I was so frustrated. Imagine the hours it took me to complete my detailed life plan, and it all fall apart just because of my grade for FAR450.

If it wasn't for this one particular subject, everything will be right on track. That includes:

-start ACCA in August
-get my study fund
-represent my uni in SUKIPT in Oct
-bla3

However, i dont think any of these is possible due to the little incident. I hate that its out of my control. I dont know what to do. I dont have a solid Plan B as i really wants my initial plan to work out.

Now, my plan B is to apply for a job in my field. I dont really like this plan.

But, we wont get everything that we want all the time. Its called the real life. So what can i do when life gives me lemon? I turn it into lemonade! Have to make something out of it. Look at it from a diferent angle. Find the positive side.

Permohonan Kemasukan Ke UiTM Semester 2 2012

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After graduation plan 2012

InsyaAllah i will finish my Degree this month and get me result early of August. So what's next. There are quite a few options.

1) Study ACCA full time in UiTM starting Sept 2012, apply Pinjaman Boleh Ubah MARA
Pro:
-get ACCA faster, December 2013.
-MARA loan helps pay my study
-Uitm grant pay for the papers (around RM400 each)
-lotsa free time to start a business
-lotsa time for travelling overseas
Cons:
-No salary, must work hard and spend less to save money for vacation
-Starts working at the age 27
-Cant buy a house, with no steady income

2) Works in an audit firm, study ACCA part time under CALAB
Pro:
-Get the most money, salary from work + allowance from CALAB
-Have lots and lots of money for vacation and buying a house
-Can save a lot in ASB
-Get ACCA in 5semester
-Tons of working experience
Cons:
-busy busy busy for 3 years, weekends have class in Sunway kot
-3 years contract with the firm. have to pay back huge sums if i stop ACCA or stop working.
-no play play. less time to open business

3) Works full-time
Pro:
-Get salary
-Have more free time, cuz tak buat ACCA lagi

Cons:
-No ACCA, degree only.
-....

oh penat nak fikir. will continue soon.

i like to wear black abaya / jubah

Its impossible to please everybody. And i dont intent to do that. That would create to much stress. Yes, it it nice to be liked, but it's not like the world ends just because somebody don't like you or don't approve of you. I am glad that day after day, i started to care less about what others think of me. I am very flexible and i always change and always trying something new. Some people just can't accept that and begin to ask weird questions.

For example, about what i wear. Some days i wear t-shirt and jeans, some day i wear long skirts, and some day i wanna wear abaya (black jubah). So why is it when i wear normal clothes that uni students wear (shirts, jeans, skirts), nobody says nothing. But when i wear jubah, there's a whole lot of comments.

I don't wear it every single day, but often. I like to wear jubah. Nobody make me wear it. I do it myself because i want to. But i still wears jeans and long skirts and kurung and all. It's just that i like to wear jubah. I get a lot of positive comments from friends but there are some negative one, about me always wearing the same cloth and why do i wear it *skeptical eye*.

What's wrong with jubah? it follows uitm's sahsiah rupadiri, it's proper and nice, not sexy, not offensive,

and most importantly it covers my aurat. why does some people make a big deal of me wearing it. It's quite similar with baju jurung, but instead of 2 pieces, it is 1 long piece of loose clothes that covers your body.

Gimme a break. Let me wear what I want without judging. I am not pressured into it. I seriously ikhlas. Be nice please.Don't look at me up and down when you see me. It's quite uncomfortable. Thank God there's always another friend to defend me. Like 'biarlah dia nak pakai apa". Thank you.

my week before the final exam

ok. its officially 6 days before my first paper. i have tonnes on my to do list.
but i guess everybody else is just the same. a lil difference is that i have an extra paper.
thanx to my 'expertise' in THAT subject. okay, so i have an extra paper. and i really hope
i'll do well this time. it wont be easy, im not gonna lie. but its life. life are NOT easy.
if its that easy, that it will be plain boring. and it will be call scrabble. cause i think scrabble is easy.
so tonight im gonna do my international accounting assignment. i should be running, but i
postpone that. hope i'll get a lot done tonight. wish me luck. i tend to over reasearch and over analyze all my assignments. im gonna put a stop to that. my perfectionism is taking way too much of my time.
ok. gonna start now. bye.

Balik kampung best

I have 10 days of mid term break. A very much needed break. After 5 days of intense studying for the common test, its holiday!!! But personally i think it should be the holiday first, then the common test. Maybe others dont agree, but again its my preference.
Anyway, during this holiday, i went to jj for 3 days consequtively.. Puas hati.. Its very near and it calms me. Haha.
So now kat rumah, chillin with siblinhs. Rilex je. X stress. Nak makan, mama masak. Oh sungguh sedap. And i help. A little.
Just a little stress about my phone. The cable koyak. Then petang go jog to kedai fon, bought a new cable, then run back home. 2 in 1. Later, i dound out that the cable doesnt work. Haish. Luckily my brother went and change it. Now its all good.
Ok time for more rest. Chiao.

The next level.

I must beat far450 to get to the end of my degree game. I have about 2 months to conquer it. There's thousands of people who succeed. So why cant i? I have my strategy and plan to achieve it. I'll avoid negative people. I'll surround myself with people who positive people, who love me, know me, care about my success.. Who wont let me down. Who will pick me up when im down.. Who will tell me that i can.. Who tell me they believe in me more than i do. Even if there's no one, i always know that i have my family who always believe in me.. I miss u all. So much. Nak balik rumah. Study kat rumah.

Just believe.

I dont give a damn. I dont care if nobody believe in me. I dont know what to say if u dont believe in me. But i believe in myself. And i wont back off without a fight. I know its hard. But EVERYTHING is hard. I'll prove to everybody who doesnt believe in me that i can. InshaAllah dengan izinNya i can. I'll do my hardest, my very best. And after i give my all, if i dont get that scroll, then i wont be sorry. Cuz now i dont have to say 'what if' because i know i already did the best.

When im sad

Its not a good feeling at all. But its not like you can avoid it. One day or another, you ought to be sad. Its just a feeling, but it sure is a strong one.
Sometimes i wonder what it will be like if you can put certain feeling on hold. For example, when you are sad but you have to go to class. So put the negative feeling on hold, just go to class and carry on with your life. But everybody knows its not that easy.
Adoiii.

Breaking to pieces.

Thats what happened to my heart. Broken to pieces. So what should i do? Pick it up and toughen up? I dont know.
Just stay strong. And dont let anything or anybody brings you down. You are reponsible about how you feel. Just be strong and everything will get better.
It will.

Dear diary

I know this is not really a diary as people can read this. But who read my blog anyway? So anyway. I just need an outlet to spill my feelings n thoughts.
Now im in my final semester if degree. And i tell its not easy. I know it will e hard, but i have ni idea it will be THIS hard. Im struggling so bad. I feel suffocated by the tonnes if work and endless GROUP PROJECTS. Its fun to do role play and all but when u have more than 1 projects per work, sometimes 3, it really takes my times away. My studying time. And i dont have much time to run anymore.
I have to squeeze like an hour here and there to get a good sweat. I gain weight when u dont run. N u hate thr so much.
I dont know what to do. I need n must n absolute must get good grades for all the papers so that i can continue with ACCA straight away. I dont want to delay it. but its sooo hard.
I felt like i have too many subjects. Its 7. I know other people had done this, but just think its too much for me too handle. There's so many things to study that i dont even know where to start. Need help. Need motivation. Need study group. Need study partner. Need more time. Need tutor. I dont know what i need!

No question

No question about exam, none about running, n none about the sharp pain in my chest.

When im sick

I need a hug.

Lirik Awan Nano – Hafiz AF7

Lihat ke arah sana
Serakan warna dan berarakan
Awan
Pabila terik panas
Segera hadirnya memayungi diri

Pabila kau dahaga
Sesegera turun hujan melimpahkan kasihnya
Pabila kau katakan
Akulah awan itu yang kau mahu

Begitulah awan nano
Setia melindungi diri
Tika panas mencuba menggores pipi
Dan bibirmu


Begitulah awan nano
Sering saja tak terduga hadir
Dan tak akan tercapai jejarimu

Kasihnya
Kasih tiada banding
Setia tiada tara
Bagaimanapun jua

Awan kekasih sebenarmu sayang
Walaupun tak akan tercapai jejarimu

Lihat diriku ini
Yang sesekali pernah kau bagaikan awan
Sehingga tak mungkin terlupa
Berikan belas sedari dulu

Sehingga tak mungkin termampu saksi
Setitis pun air matamu kasihku
Sehingga kau katakan
Akulah awan itu yang kau rindu

Akulah awanmu yang sedia
Melindungi dirimu tika panas mencuba menggores pipi
Dan bibirmu

Akulah awanmu yang sering kau rindu
Dan tak terduga hadirmu walau tak tercapai jejarimu

Kasihku
Kasih tiada banding setia tiada tara
Bagaimanapun jua
Aku pelindung dirimu sayang
Walaupun tak akan tercapai jejarimu

Begitulah awan nano
Setia melindungi diri tika panas mencuba menggores pipi
Dan bibirmu

Begitulah awan nano
Sering saja tak terduga hadir
Dan tak akan tercapai jejarimu

Kasihku
Kasih tiada banding setia tiada tara
Bagaimanapun jua
Aku pelindung dirimu sayang
Walaupun tak akan tercapai jejarimu

Everything happens for a reason

I really believe this. And this belief has release me from extra burden and stress. I used to be stressed and frustrated if what i had carefully planned does not happen they way i think it would. But now i just try to accept it. Because we as human cam just plan, but Allah will determine how it will be. So i think its better for me to just plan as usual, try my hardest, pray for the best. Cause He knows what it best for me.

Im so glad that i was born as in an Islam family. In this kind of world, its full of temptation that im not sure i can handle by myself.

Im weak. I need support. Im praying that i'll be stronger day by day to stop whatever wrongful act that im doing. Its an ongoing effort. Its not easy, but its not impossible. I dont know how long do i have to correct myself, but i hope it'll enough.

I dont mind if i die young, but i really hope that im prepared. Sometimes i wonder what have i done in this 24 years of my life. All the precious time that i wasted. All the things ive done. All the goods and the bads.

I need to change a lot of things. Im doing this slowly, but sometime it scares me that i dont know when my time is due.

Dear little blog

I dont have that many readers, in fact i dont think i really have any beside myself. Thats not the point. Because i am blogging just to spill stuffs thats overflowing in my head or heart or both. Sometimes writing blog gives me a sense of relief.

Maybe im stress about something. But i dont blog about it. I blog about something else that does not even related to my problem in hand. But when u blog, i feel calmer. Maybe because there's no stress factor whatsoever.

Sometimes i imagine growin old and i will read this blog to remind me of my younger self. About who i was, who i used to be. Cause i personally believe everybody will change over time. In one way or another. And i pray that i change positively.

There are things that i want to do. So bad. But i hesitate because i think it is a pretty drastic change. I dont really care about what others think if me, but i am more concern whether i can continue what i started. I am building my courage. Finding my inner self. Lets all pray that it will turn out great.

Away from hometown, back to town.

Sayunya... T.T naik je bas, terus nangis. Adoi segan dengan orang2 tepi. Nasib baik seat single. Tak tau kenapa hari ni sedih lebih.. Huhu maybe sebab spend time lama kat rumah. Sedihnya.

Semoga selamat perjalanan ni. And semoga selamat perjalanan abah balik rumah. Sayang abah.

Fishing but no fish

Okay. We did go fishing. Sadly we didnt caught any. Since fishing is a very tiring thing to do, we took a break and had lunch. Its tiring alright. Cause we have to keep quiet. Do have any idea how hard i try to refrain myself from talking? So, we went to the seafood restaurant and ordered a lot. Ikan siakap masak stim, sotong goreng tepung, udang goreng tepung, kangkung ikan masin, telur dadar and rice of course. So its a full table. And extremely full stomach afterwards.

Later, we went to nearest surau for asar while charging our phones simultaneously. Then, fish some more. Still no fish. I dont think i have any skill whatsoever when it comes to fishing. To kill the times, my siblings and i played 'guess the meaning of the word'. That kept us occupied for a good half an hour.

Okay, gave up. We packed and get ready to leave. Oh and the toilet there is like a mini toilet, its so small as if its for kiddies. Sigh.

Next stop, beach. Wanna take pictures. Will update later. Bubye.

Hometown

Balik kampung always best. Dapat spend time with parents and siblings and Dodi the neighbour's cat. They left the cat with us because they went to their hometown. See, everybody is going back to their respective hometown. Hmm that explains the 6 hour journey home that usually takes only half the time.

Nevertheless, the experience meeting my family is so much fun as usual. We all talk and talk and talk some more. Sharing stories. Even if the stories are not funny at all, they always end up being hilarious. Maybe because the way they are told or because we always have a funny twist to everything. Sometimes our friends might not get it, but we always do. Thats the fun of being in close knit, we understands each other.

Now we are in a mini road trip to Taiping. To go fishing. Haha sounds funny already ;p. But we just arrived an havent start fishing. Just watch others fishing. Done jamak qasar, i am blogging. Still no signs that we are fishing whatsoever. Haha. Will update soon.

Crazy jam

Ohmaigod! Jam like craaayyyyzayyyy.. Im on my way to my hometown now. From kl to ipoh shouldnt take me this long. But the trafic is unbelievable. Thank God fot the invention of Iphone or i have to face the possibility to collapse out of severe boredom. Its seriously slow moving. And the cars around me are the same cars for many kilometres. Since we are still stuck here, i might as well introduce myself to people in nearby cars and have a conversation to kill each other's boredom.

Im sleepy. But im sooooo hungry that its hard to fall asleep. Cant wait to reach home and feast on the home-made cuisine. *salivating* *wipe it away* dang. Its already 3.5 hours and we're nowhere near ipoh. I bring kara's book and Adam Khoo's book but im not in reading mode right now. This instance, all i want is food. I cant believe i forgot to bring some food / snacks. Its so unlike me. I always bring tons of food for travelling since im hungry almost every hour or so. Today i didnt bring anything. Thanks to my housemate who gave me some kinder bueno..

We're still crawling now. Not literally. But i think if i literally crawl on the road, it will be faster that in vehicle. I pray to Allah that the traffic will be better. And also that everybody on the road will arrive safely and no car get any problem, and no accident and those who already in trouble, i pray that it will be solved shortly. Amin.

Im no 17

The official result of mizuno run is out. I got no17 out of 615 runners in women open category. Timing for 10km ia 53:47.

I was okay with the results since it was hilly. But now im injured.. My knee and my lower back. Maybe cause i tackle the downhill in the wrong way. Im not sure. It just hurts. And when i pray, there's popping sounds on the knee joint. Scary. Im resting now until it heals. Its been 5days since i last run. Huhu. Its for the best. I have to fight the temptation to run.

Mizuno wave run 2012 at UPM

This is my first time ever that i join a Mizuno Run. Since i cant find the route, i surfed to get runners reports of the previous one. They said its hilly. And damn how true that is.

So i arrived early this morning, with my friend. We parked at 9km mark so its 1km uphill to go to starting line. I slow jogged. Then i warmed up bla bla bla. I started from the third line. I was pushed hard that i went out of the timing mat. I tried to get back in the sea of people. Still didnt know if it detected my timing chip :(

I started quite okay, listening to my playlist and the coach from adidas micoach apps. Truly helpful. I set a workout and it told when i should speed up or slow down based on the pace that is set. For example my blue zone is from pace 10:06 to 5:42 minute/km. And my green zone is from 5:42 to 4:22 minute/km. My workout for today is an hour workout. 5 minutes in blue zone, 50 minutes in green zone and finish with 5 minutes in blue zone.

After the first 5 min i have to maintain a pace faster than 5:42. If i am not running in this zone, the coach will tell me. And he will also tell me that i have reached a quarter, half n three quarter of the workout. Nice huh?. And i also put a setting where he will read my stat every 1km. The stats include the km, the time since i started, the pace, the zone im in and the target zone. But you can set what you want it to read or when. Sounds like a review for Adidas MiCoach iphone apps.

Oh did i mentioned i forgot to stop the time after i arrive? Dang. I arrived, they told me im not in top 10 position, get frustrated, held back tears, took off shoes, threw up, oh THEN i remembered and stop the timing. So i dont know my exact time. have to wait for the result to came out in the net.

I stopped the timing at 54 min plus. But i think i actually arrived at around 52 min plus.. Thats good enough for this race cause of the killer hills. So my next 10k i must n must get sub-50 minutes. InsyaAllah.

Today, there are some foreigners. So i still cant compete with them. Obviously. They train twice a day. I train once a day :(

Hmm this gets me thinking. I want to win so badly. Should i train like them to win like them? But its a HUGE commitment for me. I have to wake up super early to run. Then get ready for class at 830. Go home at 4 or 6, depends on the schedule. Then run again for evening session. At night, study, assignment and teach upsr kids. Repeat for 5 days per week. Uh oh. Im not quite ready yet.

Im tired. Gonna doze off. My knee hurts so bad, so im gonna take 2 days off to rest and let it heal. Bye all.

Its officially 2012.

And im so thrilled. Cant wait to fill new stories to a brand new year. I wanna do better in everything this year. I know i will have to sacrifice certain thing in order to be successful in the areas that i want, but im willing to do it. Lets pray that i manage to juggle all my responsibilities nicely. And when things get hard, lets pray that i stay strong, do my very best and everything will work out fine. Amin. Talking about pray, have u solat isya'?

Kehidupan yang lalu

Tajuk pelik. Whatever la. As long as im happy with it and no one is offended. In less than 3 hours, its gonna be a whole new year. It wont be 2011 anymore, so 2011 will be my 'kehidupan yang lalu'. Why so dramatic? Because there's many memories, good and not-so-good that happens in 2011. Where there are some that i am really really proud of and some that um.. Not so much. So im just gonna leave it all behind, and keep moving towarda the future. I will keep everything safely tucked at the back of my mind and starts a new and improved year. I want to be a better person (in my own standards) and im gonna take full responsibilities of myself. Yes i will.

I am going to be 25years old in 2012. That means im gonna be a quarter of a century! Wow. InsyaAllah. But sometimes i wonder about certain thing. I am the kind of person who over analyze and over prepared. For example, when i wanna go watch a movie, i'll check the showtimes, how many minutes will it be, the reviews and all. But what about for my afterlife? I dont think i am over prepared. In fact i dont think im prepared at all. If i die tomorrow, what will i bring... Have to think deep and hard.

Off with a bad start.

Nothing more to say.

Superwoman

My mom is a superwoman. Gosh i really miss her. Not because she's not around. Its me that's always busy. I always have all these activities. But i try as much as possible to be home. I love you Mom. Im glad you are my mom. I promise i wanna make you happy. I know you would be thrilled if any of your kids get excellent results in uni. So, considering next semester is my final sem of degree, ive made it my major goal to get all A. It wont be easy, obviously. But it's not impossible either. It will be tough for me to juggle everything because every WEEK i have:
-7 subjects to study
-28 hours of lecture
-2 nights of teaching UPSR students
-3 sessions of marathon training
-1 or 2 races
It will be hectic. But i am strong and active. I believe i can do this. I always like this motto:

"Aim for the sky, cause if you fall, you'll reach the clouds"

So, i aim high. And i strive really hard and i sacrifice things in order to reach my aims and goals. When i finally reach it, its a feeling if satisfaction that no one can give. Only me and myself.

Switched at birth

Not me. God no. Its the tv show on Star World. Tonight is the first night i watched it. Its actually okay. Very interesting. Im really glad that it doesnt happen to me though.

What i did on Jan 1st 2012?

Woke up and get ready.
Ate breakfast at kfc.
Went to mid valley.
Bought black wedges at vincci.
Renew padini card.
Kasut putus.
Wore new shoes.
Watched Jack&Jill. So funny.
Survey skirt. Like one. No stock.
Want to buy kara goucher's book at MPH. Not enough time.
Bought gelato fruity. Raspberry. Yum.
Went back. Jam.
Ate nasi kamdar at hakim. Half portion.
Sent kakak to bus stop.
Got home. Door knob prob.
Went out again to buy new one.
Cancel gym session.
Settled the knob.
Watched news with room mate, sis n ain.
Take shower. Went out again.