Ok, so i had run the PBIM. My first ever run in Penang. You know how hard I trained and how i sacrifice a lot of things for the sake of this game. But, i know that we can only plan.
My target for the 10km run is to break the 50minutes time and to get top 10 rank in women's open.
Actual Result : 56:31 and Rank: 20
I am satisfied with the result, but i didnt reach my target. so what can i do? train harder and go back next year! i want to achieve both target by then.
i came to Penang pumped with excitement and all. Unfortunately the night before the event, I got bombed with an information that is really shocking and life-turning. i dont know what's worse, knowing it at a very bad timing or spending tons of money on the trip and get nothing.
God had plan everything for me. And i accept it. But of course i cried my eyeballs out that night. Sometimes i wonder how one simple information can affects one's person so much, i dont have the answer. But i get the first-hand experience and i dont like it one bit. Imagine having the best day of your life, everything was perfect, and suddendly BOOM, that effing news ruined everything. And i mean EVERYTHING. It makes me stress, angry, sad, loose focus. all at once.
I cried so much that my eyes are swollen the next morning, The morning of PBIM! How dare you. You and your little thing with UNCLE annoys the crap out of me. I blame you and uncle. I am so mad that I'm not in the perfect state of mind on the race day. And i dont get quality sleep. Yeah thanks a lot. All my 3 weeks of intense training just flew out of the window. i kept thinking about it the WHOLE run.
Uncle, you are so gonna pay for this.
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