I am at a point in life where i sometimes have mixed feelings. Two extremely strong but totally opposite feelings. Such as extreme happiness and sadness simultaneously. It takes the enjoyment out of what i'm supposed to celebrate.
I may be happy that i land a job that i really want, and i will be all cheery and excited and tell others that are close to me. But sometimes it just seems that they don't feel happy for you. And this made me quite upset.
I know i can't rely on others to feel happy for me. Yet it still occurs to me why can't they be happy for me, for the path that i have chosen. I want to share the great news. Initially, i felt very happy, and warm and all fuzzy inside and can't wait to share. When you get a very flat 'ok' it sure does hurts. All my heavenly feelings gone. Just like that.
I know maybe my news is not as exciting as yours. But it's quite big for me.
Okay, enough ramblings. I got a job that i want and i am content with my life.
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