Im 25, so what?

i am 25 now. And im feeling damn good about it. I have lived for 25 years. OMG. And what have i achieved? Not much i think. But there are things that I'm proud of. Si i guess I'll post about my highlights of 2012 since its almost december.

Penang Bridge International Marathon 2012 - Race report

Ok, so i had run the PBIM. My first ever run in Penang. You know how hard I trained and how i sacrifice a lot of things for the sake of this game. But, i know that we can only plan.

My target for the 10km run is to break the 50minutes time and to get top 10 rank in women's open.
Actual Result : 56:31 and Rank: 20

I am satisfied with the result, but i didnt reach my target. so what can i do? train harder and go back next year! i want to achieve both target by then.

i came to Penang pumped with excitement and all. Unfortunately the night before the event, I got bombed with an information that is really shocking and life-turning. i dont know what's worse, knowing it at a very bad timing or spending tons of money on the trip and get nothing.

God had plan everything for me. And i accept it. But of course i cried my eyeballs out that night. Sometimes i wonder how one simple information can affects one's person so much, i dont have the answer. But i get the first-hand experience and i dont like it one bit. Imagine having the best day of your life, everything was perfect, and suddendly BOOM, that effing news ruined everything. And i mean EVERYTHING. It makes me stress, angry, sad, loose focus. all at once.

I cried so much that my eyes are swollen the next morning, The morning of PBIM! How dare you. You and your little thing with UNCLE annoys the crap out of me. I blame you and uncle. I am so mad that I'm not in the perfect state of mind on the race day. And i dont get quality sleep. Yeah thanks a lot. All my 3 weeks of intense training just flew out of the window. i kept thinking about it the WHOLE run.

Uncle, you are so gonna pay for this.

Oh spicy food

In my 21 days road to PBIM, i seriously watch what i eat. I dont drink iced beverages, no soft drinks, NO SPICY FOOD, no red meat, no minyak2 sangat, no McD no KFC no fast food. I just strive on nescafe. Yeah i know its not good to consume to much caffeine, but i drink lots n lots n lots of plain water to cover it up. I promise. Hehe.

I always do these sacrifices when i have really important run coming up. But to avoid spicy food is so damn hard, man. But a runner gotta do what a runner gotta do. I run about 4-5 times per week, with long runs included (i dont do long runs before this). Hopefully it show in PBIM. I really2 wanna break the 50minutes mark for 10km. Fingers crossed.

Good to great

I self talk a lot. Maybe i dont have the best support system ever, but i positive-talk myself. You should do it do. Instead of depending on others to make you feel good, just be in charge and make yourself feel great.

Im on a 3-weeks diet

I started my diet on monday 29 October 2012 and it will ends in 21 days. The end point will be on 18th November, which is PBIM 2012. I will watch what i eat for this 21 days and train at least 4 times per week.

Im want to loose 2.5-3.5kg and reach 51kg by that date. I sacrifice lotsa things and i am okay with it.

My goal for PBIM is to break 50minutes mark for 10km.

Are you really THAT busy

I think everyone is absolutely seriously busy. Or they are just ignoring me. Or not care enough about me. I dont know.

And i dont know what to think. Maybe i should just move on with my life. Its not like im dead if they are busy. Oh. Maybe i should focus more on life after death, instead of thinking about this life .

Im just a little stress out. Maybe its the hormones. Again. I dont know. Im not sure. Could use a little support.