Passion

The singers who blind auditioned in The Voice Season 5 are truly passionate. Most of them have their own story that pushes them to pursue their dreams. They sing with feelings, with their heart, to convince the judge that they are real. That they want this teir whole life. More often than not, the judge can hear the sincerity and turn their chairs around. I always love people who are so passionate about what they do. Passion is not something we can teach. Its either there or not. Sometime it comes with time. You can do the same thing everyday, until it becomes a habit, without being passionate about it. One day, BAMM! You stop doing it, and you are dying to do it one more time. That is when it hits you. You ARE doing the thing you love. You want to do it. It is not a chore, work or job. It actially is your passion.

It id not easy to know what it is that we truly wants and enjoy. As for me, I always love running. I trained so hard, 5 days per week, and a race almost every weekend. I think I excelled. I rise to top 10 most of the time. And finally I get into no 2 spots a few times. Never a champion though, in Malaysia running scene. But podiums are good enough. In 2011 I clocked my PBs. Personal best. Sorry, running terms. And what happens next? After I am on a winning streak, I feel te pressure to maintain. Before, I run for my love of running. Now i have to run to win. I tell you, it is not fun. And people kind  of expect you to win. and if I dont, I feel like letting people down. Now my passion is a full time job. I have to follow certain schedule. I hate it. Before this, I cant wait for evwry hard running session, i am madly deeply in love with running. It is all I do, all I think about. Sadly, I fell out of love. It is not a passion anymore. I just do it to maintain my weight. How is it possible? I used to live,, sleep, breathe running!

I envy people who are passionate about something, and stays that way. I have too much distraction, that I dont have tome to run anymore. I started to work in August 2012, and simultaneously start my own business around June 2013. It took me a whole bunch of my time and focus. I dont run anymore. I love running. Now I feel sad writing about this. I should just lace up and run. Yes that is what Im gonna do. Take charge. Just do it!

Please let the birds fly

Please don't put little birds in a cage. And tie their tiny little feet so they cant fly. Please dont keep it alone in the cage. Eating the same thing every day. If you remember to feed it everyday. Imagine yourself in the bird's shoe. Some master locked you in a room with windows, so that you can envy all the free human outside, going enywhere and everywhere. Without a rope tied to their feet. They can eat all kinds of food, not like you. Your master only give you the same old dry bland looking food. What do you feel not having any friend inside the room, with NO activity whatsoever. Every seconds, silently (or loudly) praying that your master will let you out, to live your life freely, enjoy the wonderful world.

To anyone who kept birds in cage, I beg you. Please let them free. Why locked them? Why torture them? Pleaseeeeew let them go. Let them fly. They'll thank you and pray for the best for you.

Delayed decision

In life, we are forced to make all sorts of decision. Big or small. Important or petty. Life altering or not. But all decisions are equal, we have to make one. I fret making decision, for fear of making the wrong one. I was known to NOT make a decision, so that I don't have to face the consequences. I let everything happens for me, without me deciding it. Either i let somebody else choose for me, or I just ignore it until I only have one choice. Crazy? Yes. But I do this on a daily basis.

All the outcomes, I just accept it as it is. I regard them as choosen by the Almighty. I dont know if I should do this. Leaving everything to fate. I always believes that whatever I do, it's already being chosen for me. Becoming an adult (sort of) I learn to make my own decision and face the consequences. Just choose. Just do it. It is hard for me to make any kind of decision, causing me to hate OPTIONS! Why cant there be just one type of shoes? Just one category? Just one shades of lipstick? It is ridiculous to hate options. Sigh. Bye.

Is gadget more important than human being?

We live nowadays in a world of gadgets. Where birthday gifts are mainly consists of iphones, ipads etc. Human seems to favour the gadgets than everything else. Some will be totally immerse in the virual world that they ignore actual relationships with people around them. They make friends with stranger from thousand miles away and prefer to have virtual connections with them via skype, fb, twitter or whatever means.

I just had an experience with a dear friend. She looks so stressed out and miserable, while seriously jabbing at her phone. When i asked, she said angrily "i can't connect to the internet!". What the?? Excuse me. I was concern if you have a REAL problem. How on earth will i know that the problem is your internet connection a.k.a your "life" line. Shouting at a friend over a line problem? Nice. For stupid things. Nice. Maybe your phone can congratulate you when you graduate, maybe your phone can hang out.

Draft of my Bucket List 2013

1. Get scuba diving license (dive 16 feet!)
2.Run a half marathon (2hrs 11 mins)
3. Open a Coolblog franchise (presint 1 putrajaya)
4. Get promoted 
5. Buy a car
6. Go swimming in the sea, without life jacket
7. Go to Bali
8. Go to Krabi
9. Hold a garage sale
10. Get rid of most dish
11. Get rid of sofa
12. Buy my first proper coffee table
13. Sign my first cheque
14. Go to Medan
15. Loose 5 kg
16. Sleep at a backpackers inn
17. Backpacking to foreign country
18. Get rid of a quarter of my clothes
19. Get rid of half of my clothes
20. Get rid of 10 pairs of shoes

21. Get rid of another 10 pairs of shoes

22. Go horseback riding

23. Save a quarter of my paycheck

24. Cut nescafe intake to only 3 times max per day
25. Get a different hairstyle
26. Grow a plant
27. Start a blogshop
28. Visit an orphanage
29. Learn to play guitar
30. Get a credit card

Random Act of Kindness : Feed a stray cat

My family loves cat. So much. In my grandparent's and aunty's house, there are more cats than human being. That is how much they love cat. We never neuter (kasi) a car and we never will. I think its a body part that they need and we should not take away. Imagine if we are neutered. We would not want it, right? Its their right.

Neutered or not, these home cats are being taken care of. They get food, drinks and shelter. Gow about stray cats. They must be hungry most of the time. Looking at their skinny dirty body, sometimes with scabs and fresh wound from fighting with other cats. Or maybe wounded because some insensitive human being kick them or hit them when they come for food. Cats are alive, they can feel the pain. Please don't hurt them.

And I want to say 'lets feed stray cats'. Just buy cat food and give it to any cat you found on the street. They will thank you for it. And pray for you. Just be kind to cats, or any living things. Try it today. You won't regret it.

Vietnamese coffee is the best coffee

I went to Hakim to lepak and eat naan tandoori, which increased in price by the way. The tandoori chicken is RM8.00 now. Ughhh inflation! So i ordered iced coffee. Kopi beng. It was nice, but not as nice as vietnamese coffee. Trung nguyen is the most famous brand of coffee there and I bought like 20 packs to give out to others. I want them to taste it. However, the vietnamese prepare their coffee in a special way with a special kind of drainer.

It lets the coffee drips slowly through the holes. I tried to do it myself, but it didnt came out like in Vietnam. Maybe i should go back someday to drink coffee made locally. Totally worth the trip. I went to Ho Chi Minh around June 2013 for six days. I drank their codfee every single day and multiple times. The taste is incredible, and they have really wide range of coffee. There is also numbered ones, from No 1 to No 5. No5 being the strongest. I tried and its to die for! Being a coffee as I am, I actually get mild headache the first time i drank coffee there. Its strong. But after the second cup, there's no stopping me. Trung Nguyen is the best for me. A serious must try when you visit Vietnam. Apart from the Cu Chi Tunnel of course! 

Teardrops on my guitar

I don't actually have teardropa on my guitar. It just sounds nice. Anyway, what is the deal between ladies and tears? They say its women's weapon. Women use it to get what they want. I beg to differ. I don't think it is as easy as that. and woman don't cry because they have agenda, (maybe some) but I feel that as women we tend to have a more sensitive heart. Me myself, for instance, have a really soft hard. And I am sensitive to what people around me does. By people around me, I meant my family and close friends. As much as I don't want to admit, what these people do affect me a lot. Usually I don't care what others do or say to me. I can be tough. But when it comes to friends and family, I an easily get teary. However, I think it will be a waste if our precious tears to cry about someone, when they don't even care. Just try to shake it off and be strong. Think that you will get nothing by crying your eyeballs out. You just waste your time and ruin your make up. Keep your head up high and move on. Life is too short to stuck in the past. Go forward and enjoy every moment.

Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah, there's many things to be thankful for. My business is more stable now. It has been almost 4 month. Yay. And Im also thankful that I can control my feeling better now. Sometimes i get angry, so I found a great way to diffuse it by myself. It works out fine. I dont need someone to consile me or to say sorry or whatever. I choose to do thing that i can control. I realize the hard way, that trying to control uncontrollable things will result in myself getting hurt.

Now, alhamdulilllah its all under control. Hopefully everything will become better. Everybody knows that getting blame for something you didnt do can cause anger. And trying to explain sometimes cause more damage. My solution is to say briefly that I really didnt do it. So then its up to them to respond. Some will accept, some will retaliate, some will get angry because I said it. Leave it to themx i have done my part telling the truth. THAT i can control. The response, I CANT. Why bother.

And alhamdulillah, Allah saved me from rear-ending a Honda. I tried to switch driver after a toll. I changed my spot from the passenger side to the driver's. I accidentally pushed the gear shift and the camoved and almost hit the car that parked in front. The previous driver chased the car and opened the door. I was totally unaware of the car moving as I was looking for my shoes. Seh yelled 'BRAKE! BRAKE!. Guess what? I was so shocked that my feet feels like jelly.

I tried to brake but I cant. I saw the car in front, and its very near. Alhamdulillah I suddenly pull the hand brake. I was trembling for a few minutes. Imagine what panic can do to you. I cant even do a simple act of hitting the brake pedal. I am extremely thankful to Allah for this. If I hit the car, I dont have extra money to pay for it.W

Pet Peeves: Rude people

I can't stand rude people. Is it so hard to be polite? If you want to say something, say it nicely. If you want to ask something, ask nicely. Which part of nice don't you understand.

Life can be full of positivity, or negativity. It depends on how you perceive life. I am trying my best to view life as a very positive thing, being optimistic and all. But, sometimes rude people came and interfere with my positive vibe. They disturbed the tranquility and serenity that I like.

Imagine waking up with great energy and feeling all warm and bubbly. Just eager to face the world. Everything is going great. Suddenly, somebody just came abruptly and yell about silly things. I mean, what the?? It's not nice to be rude and yell at people. Issues can be solved with various ways, not yelling. Who taught you that yelling or rage can solve problems. We are civilized people, we should behave like one.

This is also a reminder to myself. To think before I do something. People have feelings and others' feelings are equally important as our own. Lets strive to have a peaceful day. Peace out :)

My bro goes to UiTM Kuching

Anak abah belajar oversea.. Haha not really la. My dad wants his children to study overseas, no one did. 5 of us enrolled in local unis. So when my lil bro further study in Kuching, we considered it as the farthest place la, geographically. Kena fly bagai.

I took leave, and sent him to KLIA this morning. I was quite worried to let him go alone. But i cant take another long leave, since last week I already took 4 days leave to get my PADI open water scuba diving license. I got it, by the way. Haha. Highly recommended.

Anyway, he arrived in one piece, and now house-hunting. Hopefully he'll get a decent house near his u, with classmates, or better, groupmates. It'll be easier to do assignments together and prepare for exams. Talking about uni, when will I ever start my ACCA? I will be 26 this year. If I am lucky, Allah will give me te opportunity to study overseas. UK maybe? Or Australia.

After nine months

it's been 9 months since i last blogged. I just googled about ACCA, suddenly I came across MY own blog! So, what the heck. I think I'm going to start blogging regularly from now on.
It's such a stress relief. At this time of the year, I have tonnes and tonnes of things to do in my to do list.

Anyway, the old post that i found is about my options after I graduate from my Accounting Degree. The options are
1) study ACCA full time
2) study ACCA part time while working
3) work full time.

And after a year from that post, what happen to me?

I choose 3, working full time. Now I work full time as a Branch Establishment Manager in a firm. TMI? Biarlah, its my blog. Anyway, I am currently managing 5 branches and now hecticly opening another 5. InsyaAllah. Talk about BUSYYY! But the brcanches is my boss punya lah.

But I have my own shop. my lil COOLBLOG kiosk at Putrajaya. At Selera Putra. Come and taste the greatness of smoothies.

So, will I finally study ACCA? I don't know. I hope so. I applies twice to En Shameer at UiTM, and then I can't do it. Maybe thirds time the charm. :)