Some bus driver should be more considerate

Oh long title. Im on a bus and it gets me thinking about the driver's manners. Some are really polite and cares about passengers while some are just the total opposite. They are plain rude and inconsiderate. I once witness the bus just left a lady when she went to the toilet. Later, somebody realizes that she's missing and then they look for her. That' just unacceptable. And some would stop at the side of the road to chat with their friends. Hello? Do you forget about all 40 of us behind you? If it's for a while it's fine, but imagine if it goes on for few minutes AND a few times.
But maybe its only a tiny percentage of the drivers that are like that.
Most of them are okay and nice. And i praise them for that. I respect them for taking us everywhere and stayong awake while we snooze away. Thank you for all you have done, bus drivers.

I hate rushing

If i have to rush, i'll be nervous.
If i'm nervous i'll be sweaty.
I hate that a lot. I'll try to control my situation so that i dont hv to rush.
But sometimes things are out of my control. For instance, my class ends at 4 and i have to rush to take the 5.45 bus to go back to my hometown.
That's something that i cant control. Even if i bring my bags to class an i go straight to bus stop, i cant control the traffic. Things like this makes me nervous. Because its out of my control.
I try my hardest to just be calm. But when i know the bus is not gonna wait for me, its hard not to feel anxious. I must learn to just relax.
All i can do is pack everything the day before and cut my time as much as possible. Then just tawakal. If i make it, it's meant to be. And if i miss the bus, it's also meant to be, considering that i already did all i an to be on time.

When it rains, i cry

I dont cry everytime it rains nor try to be metaphoric. Today it rains, and i cried. Yup, in the rain. Sangat sedih. You may ask why. Or you dont. It's ok, im going to spill anyway.

So, here it goes. My bus is at 545pm from section 17. I left office at 4 plus, get home and at 5.00 i am out. Usually i'll walk to the nearest bus stand which is 200m away. But it rains heavily. I brought my rain-jacket so i put it on. I wanted to just walk through the rain, but i dont want to ruin the bag that i bought for my mum. So i put all the bag n my bag under my block so they are safe from the rain. I stayed in the rain to hail a cab. I cant go to the bus stand because the bags will be soaking wet.

There are like 5 cabs that disnt stop. I didnt know why. So i started crying since i dont wanna miss my bus. Aiyoo mmg sedih. Nak give up and go upstairs. I called my brother and he said usually busses will be late when its raining. So i go back and waited in the rain, finally a cab came and get me to the station. It was 5.53 and i heard the final call for my bus.

So i did what i did best. I run. To the bus. Im the last one. So here i am in the bus, with wet kain. Baju tak badah cause i wore the rain jacket.

Lesson learnt
1) when i travel, i should bring
-FOLDABLE UMBRELLA
-rain-jacket
-plastic bag to wrap all the bags
-shoes that can get wet (luckily today i wore crocs.

All these things doea not take up lots of space. They are totally worth bringing.

I kinda miss you

I kinda miss you. It's not a terrible feeling but it's not a pleasant feeling too. I feel like i wanna see you in front of me, i wanna talk to you all the time.. I dont know. It felt different and lost. Kinda alone. I know you are there. But i want you to be here. Do come back.

My sport is your sport's punishment

I am a runner. And what i do is run. I love running like nobody else does. Some people dread running and will create millions of excuses just to escape a running session. Well i wont. I will find an excuse just to run. I love it so damn much that i love to do running shoe-shopping rather than oter shoe-shopping.

When i am stressed, running will maje it dissappear. I love running alone, with a partner, or in groups. I live running on tracks, road or treadmill. I dont care what time, or where. In fact, i would be glad if my job requires me to run.

Now im preparing myself for Nike Run KL 2012. Im not fit enough but i hope i'll manage to squeeze the top 5 spot. I joined the Nike Run KL 2010 n 2011, and i got no 6 and no 8 respectively in women under 25 category.

Hopefully this year i'll get better result. Tomorrow is the day. I will go to work in the morning, and go to the run in the evening. Wish me luck.

Im not free

I hate to say im not free for another million time. I work 830-6 most of the day. And sometimes longer. Sometimes on saturday. I am also still a student, taking one hard subject. I run 3-5 sessions per week with an event every fortnight. So when is my free time. Thus, im not free. I hate to say im not free. I wanna have fun to.

This hectic schedule just started this week, and if it prolongs, i dont know what will happen. I do my best every single day, and at 1030pm im too exhausted to function. I need to find a way out, or a way to relax and rewars myself. I am taking one day at a time and i try positive-talk to get me goinh.

It's hard handling this alone. But, i think it'll be harder if i'm not alone, as i have to take into consideration about someone else. Why would i drag someone else into this crazy life of mine. I just pray that i will find a way to make all these a little easier and manageable.

My utmost gratitude (delayed post)

Here i am today, as a Muslim lady from a Muslim family working in an Islamic environment. I have a lot of people to thank for making me who I am. The upbringing that made me ME. I am happy the way i turned out. Yes, of course i have certain things that i regret i did, and sometimes still wishing i haven't done. But that is all my history and are apart of me.

Now, i feel that i am more matured, making better decisions in life. So, here goes the list.
I want to thank Allah because i was born a Muslim and also because of every little blessings from Him.
I want to thank my parents for taking care of me all these 25 years, guiding me along the way.
I want to thank Wan & Cumin for taking care of me when i was little.
I want to thank all my siblings for the times we have, growing up together.
I want to thank all my friends, all that shape me or break me. Those whi made the challenging teenage life bearable.. In uni, mia mel rara kish sam ijam anisjihan sya.. In matric naben ismaon syasya zaimas za sya nas.. My teammates in futsal, handball, running and all.. Team under coach Tom, coach Zahid n coach Shariff.. Especially Suky, my BFF.
I want to thank all my teachers, lecturers, coaches, supervisors, managers, bosses for everything that u've done, for all the new things i've learnt, the new experience and knowledge.
I want to thank everyone i know for making my life a pleasant one.
I want to thank all the strangers that made my day.
I want to thank my cats that cheers me up.
I am grateful for every little things that happens in my life, no matter how petty it seems. I am thankful that i am me. I feel gracious for all opportunities that i took, for every achievements i get, for every mistakes i did.
It's all apart of my life. As for now, i am moving forward, striving for a better today. I thank u all for everything. Let us not dwell on the past and make the best of every single day. Every. Single. Day. And also dont be obsess by the future, as it may not come. So my point is, live as if today is your last day.

From travel to travel (delayed post)

Im really in love with travelling. I feel at ease when im on a journey to another country. Sometimes i think of my life, is like a waitig for another travel. When im back from one country, i will start thingking about next destination. And counting the days until the times come.

Right now, im waiting to board the plane back to Malaysia. I've been in Krabi for 5 days. Tomorrow im going to work as usual. I will start my countdown to Hong Kong in January 2013. It is 105 days to go. Cant wait. Maybe I can go to Guangzhou while im there.

How i wish travelling is my job.

October tragedy / tragedi oktober

Does it really exist? I dont think so. But a sequence of bad things did happen yesterday. First, my colleague pass out, then another colleague's car broke down, later my boss' car was out of gas. If those are not coincidence, i dont know what else can they be? What? TRAGEDI OKTOBER?? No way!! There's no such things. Bad things happen all the time. Not only in this month. So everybody will stay at home and avoid everything dangerous laa? I cant go to work, i might crah my car? No i cant bike either, i'll run into a pole. I cant eat, there might be poison in it! I cant sleep, i might not wake up!

Seriously?

Okay so for me all the undesired incidents are bound to happen sooner or later. It's a test from God to see how you'll take it. But trust me, everything has its silver lining. Look from the bright side. It will always get better.