Balik kampung best

I have 10 days of mid term break. A very much needed break. After 5 days of intense studying for the common test, its holiday!!! But personally i think it should be the holiday first, then the common test. Maybe others dont agree, but again its my preference.
Anyway, during this holiday, i went to jj for 3 days consequtively.. Puas hati.. Its very near and it calms me. Haha.
So now kat rumah, chillin with siblinhs. Rilex je. X stress. Nak makan, mama masak. Oh sungguh sedap. And i help. A little.
Just a little stress about my phone. The cable koyak. Then petang go jog to kedai fon, bought a new cable, then run back home. 2 in 1. Later, i dound out that the cable doesnt work. Haish. Luckily my brother went and change it. Now its all good.
Ok time for more rest. Chiao.

The next level.

I must beat far450 to get to the end of my degree game. I have about 2 months to conquer it. There's thousands of people who succeed. So why cant i? I have my strategy and plan to achieve it. I'll avoid negative people. I'll surround myself with people who positive people, who love me, know me, care about my success.. Who wont let me down. Who will pick me up when im down.. Who will tell me that i can.. Who tell me they believe in me more than i do. Even if there's no one, i always know that i have my family who always believe in me.. I miss u all. So much. Nak balik rumah. Study kat rumah.

Just believe.

I dont give a damn. I dont care if nobody believe in me. I dont know what to say if u dont believe in me. But i believe in myself. And i wont back off without a fight. I know its hard. But EVERYTHING is hard. I'll prove to everybody who doesnt believe in me that i can. InshaAllah dengan izinNya i can. I'll do my hardest, my very best. And after i give my all, if i dont get that scroll, then i wont be sorry. Cuz now i dont have to say 'what if' because i know i already did the best.

When im sad

Its not a good feeling at all. But its not like you can avoid it. One day or another, you ought to be sad. Its just a feeling, but it sure is a strong one.
Sometimes i wonder what it will be like if you can put certain feeling on hold. For example, when you are sad but you have to go to class. So put the negative feeling on hold, just go to class and carry on with your life. But everybody knows its not that easy.
Adoiii.

Breaking to pieces.

Thats what happened to my heart. Broken to pieces. So what should i do? Pick it up and toughen up? I dont know.
Just stay strong. And dont let anything or anybody brings you down. You are reponsible about how you feel. Just be strong and everything will get better.
It will.

Dear diary

I know this is not really a diary as people can read this. But who read my blog anyway? So anyway. I just need an outlet to spill my feelings n thoughts.
Now im in my final semester if degree. And i tell its not easy. I know it will e hard, but i have ni idea it will be THIS hard. Im struggling so bad. I feel suffocated by the tonnes if work and endless GROUP PROJECTS. Its fun to do role play and all but when u have more than 1 projects per work, sometimes 3, it really takes my times away. My studying time. And i dont have much time to run anymore.
I have to squeeze like an hour here and there to get a good sweat. I gain weight when u dont run. N u hate thr so much.
I dont know what to do. I need n must n absolute must get good grades for all the papers so that i can continue with ACCA straight away. I dont want to delay it. but its sooo hard.
I felt like i have too many subjects. Its 7. I know other people had done this, but just think its too much for me too handle. There's so many things to study that i dont even know where to start. Need help. Need motivation. Need study group. Need study partner. Need more time. Need tutor. I dont know what i need!

No question

No question about exam, none about running, n none about the sharp pain in my chest.